2nd Ultra Sound 9/8/11

I headed to the doctor's office a week after my last visit to do another ultra sound. The nurse recommended I come once more before my first appointment with the doctor September 20th, mainly to see the baby in bigger size and hear its heart beat better. I was nervous of course, and had to wait for almost an hour before they called me in. I was thinking how much of pregnancy is about worrying if everything is ok, I never really thought of that side before. I kind of thought of it as..one day you're pregnant and then you wait 9 months and have a baby. Well it's not that simple. I remember my sister Noelle being a worry wart too during her first pregnancy and I think only now I can really relate. I think also for me my pregnancy started off a bit shaky and uncertain that the worry still creeps in at times. But I told myself and keep telling myself that I can't and won't live in such worry for 9 months. I don't think that would be healthy either. Like I made that promise to my baby when I was doing the dishes a few weeks ago.."I will always believe in him/her and never give up on him/her for the rest of my and his/her life and beyond..." and that helps me get through the days without worrying so much. The assistant nurse made a funny comment the other week after I made a remark about how much "worry" is involved during pregnancy. She turned around and said: "ohh, get ready to worry for the rest of your life because it doesn't end after pregnancy.." I thought that was sweet and true. Scary in a way. Christ, I worry so much about my dog Lucky..constantly making sure he's ok, not eating anything bad on the streets, and giving him as much love as I possibly can and than some more :). How is it going to be with a baby? I see the gray hairs growing already haha.

All in all so far, I've been incredibly joyful and lucky to be blessed with a baby. It's such a miracle and it's an incredible feeling knowing a little baby..a person...a human being..is growing inside of me. Wow.

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So, when I finally got called into the doctor's office for my ultra sound, my heart was beating so fast. But there he/she was, much bigger and more visible than the week before. And the heart beat was stronger (126). I was soooo happy! The nurse came into the room after and immediately said "perfect...excellent" when she looked at my chart and ultra sound picture. That was a major relief. I asked her a few questions, for example, if I can be around the house while construction and painting is happening and she said yes it's fine as long as there is good ventilation and I don't over expose myself. I also asked her about cleaning the cat litter and she recommended Brad do it (which he (reluctantly at first) has been doing like a real champ). When he travels she gave me the ok to do it as long as I wear gloves.

Beaming with a big smile on my face, I left the office and headed to the house to see what the construction workers were up to that day....